totally no mood. tmr then blog everything.

hohohoho.

anyway,today schling was fast.
maths lesson was lke blinkblink* and its over. assembly was abt prison life.first time i see all the bengs around me didnt slp and were focusin.hahs.mayb they'll turn over a new leaf.hahs. =P

after sch studying was great :) heavy rain, and the smell of it was NICEE. hahs.its really nice.it smells nice <333 hahs.

and i just argued with intan not to put scouts and guides together in the speech day parade. after that incident, we dun really want any things connecting with them,just incase misunderstandings arise again. ohwell oh well, and after a long lame arguement, intan finally agreed :DDD

iscore tuition tmr,
no one to accompany, siians.

hais :((
darn,im feeling lousy inside,
its never the same anymore;

i knew you waited for me.
i knew you were tired.
so when im out of the maze, you wasnt in sight,
so dun worry,its my turn to wait.
i knew i hurt you.
but you dunno what im goin thru at that moment.
its pure misunderstanding. but im in the total fault.
i shldnt haf let go when my heart haven.
all i wish is for you to open up ur door once again.

happiness is giving up,
and not holding on :))

EDIT.
miss C.C today was crazy durin contact time,askin mr.kor to come back to class from e1. if you was there and if you saw how she ask him back. you probably will laugh.cuz thats what me bella and those hu saw it too. HAHAHAS x)


found out that theres nth today.
so i haf nth to write.
and decided to blogged and say that theres nth to blog. LOLS.

ohhh but i found out quite a few stuffs today thru sources of course, hahs.and it starts early in the mornin at the canteen and ended in the noon at the hall abt kelvin =X oh well, hahs.

bring us back.

BORING DAY in sch.
auyong lessons = slping time.
owyong lessons = energy consuming.
cheong lessons = cannot dun be attentive.
chan lessons = talkin time.
azizah lessons = interesting in someway or another.

after sch,ate with girlfriends and homesweethome by 3.30pm. finally, and im gonna get my sleep now so that i can study at night. buais.

ohh, ali and huat say my fire-starter was shuai. oh yay oh yay! hahs. i never go off that line of sight.

so many faces but its no use.
so im dancing alone. dreaming solo .

desperate housewifes was NICE.
oh yay oh yay oh yay! :DDD

study study study.
and the combinedscinece remedial was kinda bored after sch wif juliana wu, but heys. who can compete wif her loud voice in that container. lols.

went kfc wif dewi,ali,vonne and huat for lunch. PLC and debrief at canteen after that. YAs joined in and blahblahblahhs all the way til 6 and homesweethome.

are we back to the start, where we were just strangers.
walking pass each other lke any others did.

huathuathuat, you cant ignoreignoreignore me.hahs. you know i'll be sadsadsad and i'll go crazycrazycrazy. hahs.

back from 4hrs of maths wif dearest mdm.lee and the crazy lil`shurui -.- oh well, went geylang wif my parents for dinner after that.hahs. and homesweethome.

boohoohoos, its schling tmrr once again.
i just hate it as much as i love it cuz all my darlings dearies girlfriends and my nehhhhh are goin to sch tmr also. last but not least, my fire-starter. hahs.


³y² `/ after all this time .. says:
eh
j³y² `/ after all this time .. says:
your personal msg hor
j³y² `/ after all this time .. says:
should be
j³y² ; JESSELYN/ . we could leave this town and run forever. says:
wont you leave wif me?
j³y² `/ after all this time .. says:
come with me
j³y² `/ after all this time .. says:
no
j³y² `/ after all this time .. says:
come
j³y² `/ after all this time .. says:
cos the nick already use leave
j³y² `/ after all this time .. says:
then leave again very nanting
j³y² `/ after all this time .. says:
come with me
j³y² `/ after all this time .. says:
come with me won't you
j³y² ; JESSELYN/ . we could leave this town and run forever. says:
okay. i shld always listen to a band1 girl.hahs.

and im wondering whats the word, nanting?

ocean avenue
one corner of cherry street.


went to check the iscore tuitioncentre already.
its at some ulupandan place call peace centre, lols. got the timing for combinedscience and still deciding to go or not. anyoneanyoneanyone wanna acc me to the tuition? hahs.

went to study at PS burgerking, went for dinner at cine subway, then homesweethome.

was standin at the window looking at the stars and eating subway cookies.(okay this is not romantic wif the eatin part) BUT

the stars tonight are lovelylovely :DDD

When I sleep, I dream and it gets me by
I can make believe that you're here tonight;

later goin off to doubyghout wif zhen drey ali huat and dunno still got hu laa.to see that iscore tuition centre, so envy those hu dun need tuition. im lke struggling wif my studies laa.hais, i wish someone can tutor me for free, anyoneanyoneanyone?

i need my motivation back on track.
will you be my motivation,pretty please? :DDD

WHEEES. im back from WHITLEYGIRLGUIDES'CAMPFIRE. hahs

it was quite a failure in the beginnin where nth went right the whole day,but all thanks to all the help we got, it was quite a sucess afterall :DDD

specially thanks to:
1) NPCC frens. great help with the fire and being soo enthu durin the campfire.
2) Pierce's and BPS's scouts for being so ''on'' for the last min invitation. really thanks, and KCPSS guides too <33
3) BELOVED JO-NEHNEH,JINGYIYII,chiumei,melvina and own YAs, shimin and kelly.
4) the MCs: prav bella putri, for bringin the whole campfire soo high.
5) AVA ppl.
6) gladys and others for helping us to buy stuffs and helping out.
7) gatecrashers, thou howen nearly get us into trouble with his FUN YOU! hahs.
8) ALL THE EFFORT PUT IN BY OUR OWN GUIDES, PLs and GWEN! we finally make it thru every ''suay'' things! yay. CHEERIOS. hahs.
[if i left anyone out, all i want to say is a BIG THANKYOU to you guys]

of course must say a big thanks to those schs for the last min of cant-make-it replies. THANKS ah. alright,last but not least,thanks yeeliang for being soo sporty to come out. (heys i bring the scout soul in you back again right) hahs.

im soo glad its over and it end quite sucessfully.
3cheers and 3cheers and 3cheers and infinity cheers for whitley guides! CHEERIOS! :DDD

make it obvious,
you cant see it, so i sang it in the love song.

off to lalala land, gonna think of my ''church'', hor bella? hahs.

normal schling.
and im really gettin more and more worried abt tmr. everything went wrong lastmin. prayhardprayhardprayhard. freakin busy lehh. haiis, all the hard work afterall,

went for heats today.suppose to only see how they run. but cuz saggi last min not enough ppl, me and huat ran 8 x 50m. we got 1st. thou theres only 3teams but still CHEERIOS. hahs. j.pang got injured. takecare girl. went back to sch again. and practice til 7pm. 7pm okay. hahs. its lke.woah! hahs. went home. and still busyin.

imiss. imiss. imiss. imiss. imiss. i miss you.

schling today was alright,
i love chem lesson nowadays. dunno why, but im gettin to understand things she teached recently :DDD hahs. maths was stretchstretchstretch the triangles.hahs.

after sch, was busy with guides stuffs as always. we're not gonna fail on fri. (pray hard). yepps. sweet ride from py's mum from sch to mrtstation cuz its rainin. thanksthanks.

i haf a task to do every day after sch when i going home. im goin to cheers outside de turnin machine, and i MUST turn out one eeyore de. hahs. today turned out tigger and pooh. hahs. i noe im childish but i love eeyores mahh.hahs.

and i just realise how cute is limkengann. he will act cute everymorning at assembly with some facial expression. and of course, with the propanganda of intan's talkin of how hes the fav.teacher of hers.hahs.

is this the end;
or haf it not have an beginning in the first place.

schling sucks today. esp socialstudies period. oh well,at least the motivation talk motivates me to study hard and aim HIGH. hahs. everyone,lets all get A1s for every subject. whees. mayb i want go take their combinescience tuition. any accompanies? hahs

after sch,we finally figured out the wonderful plan of the campfire without even touching ONE of the scouts' pioneering poles. keep complaining and complaining. how brother-ly are the scouts to us now, pls enlighten me on that.

okay,the highlight was that huat dance ''shebangs'' behind the hall curtains. and i SWEAR IT LOOK EXACTLY LKE WILLIAM HUNG'S VERSION. hahs. =X (im so dead) but it brighten up my day, thanks! hahs.

Keep coming back to me and make me smile again.

wonderful first day of sch-reopen.
studystudystudy. and more of it tmr. siansation.hahs.
campfire is just around the corner, and im freakin out. eeks, just hope everything will turn out well, just fine after all the hardwork we put in. >_<

pls vote for adriano. hes nice and he wont bite =DDD hahs.

desperate hsewifes is gettin more interestin and more interesting.hahs.

mathsmathsmathsmaths. i've been doin maths for the whole 3hrs. how wonderful itzit when i haven even study differciation in sch and i've already move on to study intergration at tuition. hahs. wonderful.


how the hell you want to work it out,
when you dun even one work it out together with me.

off to tuition in another 20 mins or so.
i miss mdm.lee :DDD but i hate the numbers and formulas.


It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.

whenever i smile,
i just dunno whats the reason behind it. hahs.
ironic huh. hahs.

i smiled when you look at me and look away the next second.
cuz at least i knew for that one second, i crossed ur mind.

alrights,i know tis sounds weird.
but im goin off to watch the soccermatch later at 11pm. oh fine,accordin to yeeliang. im goin off to see guys. i shall not deny as there ARE really some hot guys playin later.hahs. oh well,BYES.

yayyayyay..! hahs. i finish 2maths wksht. its alot of the MANYALOTS already okay.hahs. and im goin on to science next.

haven been studyin for tis whole wk. cuz tis whole wk was sawadika. and guides. hahs. im soo gonna chiong maths and sciences tis whole wkend which means today and tmr. im sure i can make it. i can make it. i sure i can. someone pls convince me =DDD hahs.

and anyone pls do a kind deed, to let me copy the geog thai trip handouts on monday? hahs. and send me the pics for the trip so that i can finish my dunno what book de laa. thanks =DDD

hahahahahaha.
anyone want to see something funny. pls find me.hahs. xD

went to sch for guides,
then went for movie, watch cry wolf. NICE seh.hahs. gif it a 4/5 stars. its very interestin. any-o-how it will scare you from nowhere. i was lke. coverin my face. cover more. cover all. hahs. huat also laa.hahs. alili was lke at there cursin laa.hahs.

went to buy oh-chang-kee and headed to marinabay and back to amk.hahs.

i just hated the both of them.
bcuz of them,i lost dear one.
when will i ever learn my lesson, oh whatever laa.

went to collect commission pay last night. wth. i'll never work for them again.oh whatever laa. just hope andy will asap check for me. went for dinner at amk wif alili and zhen then homesweethome.

hafta wake up early in the mornin today. go eat breakfast wif alili and then go bank and guide hse to buy badges and everything. alrights,i finally bought the collar pins for PLC. hahs. and i just get to noe something from alili. yea. its lke. hais, no comments`

everything have to change one day,
nth will stay perfect forever.

alrights hafta go study already.
btw, HAPPY BIRTHDAY,MY YOUNGER BRO! :)

wahoo.
others say they are back ytd. i say im back just tis mornin! hahs.

the thailand trip was nice, we went to visit alot places,yada yada. blahhs. the shoppin was interestin,the bus ride was fun with sipei gettin soo high and make everyone laugh.and ivychan makin funny yet pathetic comments and faces when *** ***** was talkin or askin something. hahs.

and also, the 3nites spent with my room-mate,alili was FUN. esp the first nite where we went real crazy :DDD the nites went on with bangings and shoutings of our neighbours room,yl and enoch. every nite gayin and rapin each other in their room laa.hahs. me and alili apprently heard everything. hahs. =P

and the children we visited at the thai sch was CUTE. they're lke darn shy in the beginnin laa. and after some ''ice-breaker'' songs, they got HIGH. hahs. the dancin of theirs totally make us hands down. we were lke woah! hahs.andd i self-admit a daughter.hahs. she was real cute with the yellow clip seh. hahs. and apprently,howen was the ''star'' of the sch where girls crowded him lke never before.hahs.

yepps, and when we landed at singapore airport ytd,i went home, bath, ate dinner and went to sch for prefects. it was fun laa when ppl misses me for 4days. hahs. =P loads of seniors came back,even joel. yepps. and i stayed overnight in sch and came home only tis mornin.

and btw, threesome sucks.
oh whatever laa, had enough of it where one will be out somehow.

drifting further and futher,
perhaps shes all you're after.

alrights,
goin off in another 20mins or so.
wont be in singapore for 4days,

dun miss me.
but i noe you will.
i'll mis you guys too ^_^

didnt go sch today.
sick. boohoos, hahs.
stayed at home was so nicee.hahs.
watch tv,eat,slp,eat,watch tv,slp. hahs. interestin aye? hahs.

do you even know and care?

:(
:(
:(
:(
:(
darn fever virus, i'll kill it.
you will never show me the concern it was before.

normal schling.
the english motivation lesson by mr.barton was way cool.hahs.i shall follow his way of learnin english.wahahs.x)

stayed back for the sake of prefects.
and now im sick.slight fever. just pray that i can get well by saturday for the trip. must be that stupid yeeliang pass the virus to me laa. previous day was he sick,now i am. =P

normalschling.
took class photo today. im tall. hahs. xD

badd after-sch time.
took cab home due to the tired-ness, the cabdriver was funny.
*ali me and tze went into the cab*
''okays,so which 3places you want me to fetch you guys to?''
''huh,how you noe. we also haven say anything.'' and we were apprently laughin away. hahs.

if being a good person in the situation was wrong,
if the return of helpin and concern was to doubt,
i shall start being the bad person today :)

i dun care abt geog test alr.
ADRIANO IS SOO CUTE. hahs. his performance just now was lke woah!
i thot he was goin to be lke jialat with my anata tis song.BUT he did it well,and i first time see him soo enjoyin himself.hahs. cheerios.

can i be the one,
will it be the ans i always wish for.
pretty please :)

what a beautiful day. rubbish.

anyways,its was fun durin maths and chem-after-sch lesson, hahs. steady ah. i can do the equation they cant do.hahs. so what if im droppin, hahs.=P

my girlfriends waited for my chem lesson to end before headin to jeight to buy stuffs together, how sweet.hahs. went to secret recipe to eat, laugh til stomachache.hahs.

a few more days later, will get back ppr. and i think i can jump down from the plane to thai already. results lke soo pathetic can.

perhaps you can just show me how to give up.

lets see,
i waited 1hr20mins just to see the word change.
but til now,it still have not.

and im really wondering,
why am i doin this. oh,whatever laa horr.

didnt went out with girlfriends cuz we dunno where to go. hahs.
slpt just now,i dreamt of how cute it was to be with you.thou when i woke up,knew it was just a dream. but i woke up with a smile :)

taken out from somewhere-.
what if i told you that,
all along the assumption of yours was wrong.
what if i told you that,
it was that you misunderstood what i said all along.
what if i told you that,
the feelings for you was there all along.
what if i told you that,
i want to make it obvious to let you know that
i still like you afterall.

normal schling. calvinauyong got angry and its all alanauyong fault, cuz we muggin his SS file durin maths lesson =X hahs.went to jeight after guides with gossipclub peeps. ate,talk.

and the night went on;

im sorry
im sorry
im sorry,
thats all i can say, will it help?

my hopes depends on your uncertainties.
give me an ans,will you?
cuz' lookin at you from afar doesnt feels good.

perhaps goin out tmr with my bunch of crazy girlfriends
thanks god, i got them by my side :)

That's all I got to say,
Can't think of a better way,
And that's all I've got to say,
I miss you, is that okay?

:))

theres amazin race tonight. yay! and desperate hsewifes are gettin more interestin with neighbourhood bitchin and killing each other. hahs. =P

SL investiture today was lke. hahaha. all me and intan did was there gossipin in f-language which noone understood.hahs. the pledge was soo lke the prefects one. refreshment time after the investiture was soo funny.and with yl actin with me, it cracks ppl around us up.hahas.

after sch was the thai trip briefing. its soo entertainin and interestin with the thai students teachin us thai language. hahs. thanks sadipat for teachin us what we asked thou most of it were useless words that we use to scold ppl.hahs. perhaps i shld not go for the thai trip and go for the prefect camp. it shldnt be green. it shld be neutral.

no matter how nice i knew she was.
i just cant let go/.
im know im selfish. but i just dunno how to let go of him to her. i just dunno.
pls repeat to me everyday how nice she was,wont you?

studying up next,
type me something,will you?

my leg totally aches after ytd macritchie run. dun want come sch today actually but bcuz' of the physics test,i came. and what a waste of effort,i dun think im will pass. and im gonna get a heart attack once i see my amaths CT paper back tmr.

my hands gonna be filled with chemicals and start to rot if i continue to paint the banners without wearin any protection and washin my hands umpteen times with thinner to scrub off all those dumb paint.

Always thought I'd be ready and strong enough,