whee-.

haiis..todayy nth muchh too.thenn in class..haha..feeling berii moody..luckky siti sit beside mii.thenn i sometime confide in her lorr.haiis..realli need someone to tokk to.haiis.

thenn after sch..got sec3 guides meeting..sit there so long..not realli a positive result larr..thinkk berii long..haha.thenn while doinn tis..oso hafta wait for the rain to stop then can go home mahh..haiis.

he so shuaii..goshh.haha..first time..haha.when hes wet.hahaha.
haha..haiis..he oso cuz moii depression..hah!. wad status am i to tokk abt him.haiis..im not close to him too.wad am i tokkin.haiis.i dunno too.

chelle,, i totalli noe wad euu are feelingg..haiis.its lke..emptyness inside..yet euu dunno wadd euu wanted..wad euu thinkking..haiis..im facing tt too.haiis..guess ice cream and chocolates are gurls best frenz when we are down bahh..recentlii,,apprentlii everidayy.i oso haf e urge to eat ice cream and chocolates..

CHEER UP chelle,, although mii myself dunno can cheer up not..but i dunn wann moii frenz to be sadd too. =))

can we be more than juz good frenz?

whee-.

normal schooling.haha.thenn chinese test was okiee larr.haha.thenn ermm..nth muchh lorr..tiing went home earlii.thenn todayy was lke..so tired..fell asleep in alot lesson.haha.yawns.

thenn after schh..suppose to accompany tze go hospital de.but thenn her mum came..so after eating at novena..walk a while thenn went home le lorr..

todayy..haiis..mood not quite well...moody..ahyaa..sorry sistas..if todayy i attitude euu..sorrii..didnt meant it..haiis.dunno larr..wad euu wanna mii do..i realli tryy my best le lorr..im not a gd actor..i cant hide them so well..haiis.i dunno larr..

FORGET IT!! cannot means cannot.. CANT force,,

HAIIS..

whee-.

todayy..hmm..okk larr..nth muchh.haha..got lots of kuku fun in class.haha.wad i mean kuku fun?.haha..ermm.lke..ehh.playy around..luff around..haha.wad am i tokkin.haha.

todayy got a math test..dun wannna tokk abt it le.thenn..nth muchh.thenn got lke..eh..nth muchh larr.erm.thenn after sch..went to eat lunch in canteen.went up to do moii hw..thenn went to thomson plaza awhile..haha.peii tiing..haha.yummy muffins ishh all i can sayy.haha.

ahyoo..dunno wad am i thinkkin larr..i realli berii vexed recentlii lorr..haiis.i realli hope someone can tell mi e ans to moii qn.haiis.
hopeless case for mii.haiis.

thought that i've forgotten euu.but ur face juz keep flashhin in moii mind..i wanna gif up.but myy heart juz wont allow mii.

muacks.

whee-.

haha.siian lorr..todayy..nth muchhh..payy attention during a-maths class..but simplyy..i dun understand aniithing she sayy.oh goshh..its killing mii.haha.
thenn erm..after schh.decided to stayy backk and studyy for tmrr a-math test lorr..thenn in 3e2,,studyy wif szehuii..tiing got a-math class..pyy got bio.thenn tze haven come backk..tonite bahh.haha.

thenn after studyyin..went to cheers to buy chocolates!! im a chocoholic!!.haha.thenn came up and watchh soccermatch wif sze..peii her ma..haha.but it suppose to start at 330pm.thenn we sayy..4pm go home.at least sze can watch a lil.but it started at 350pm..poor sze.. haha.thenn i still dun understand tt a-amath de erm..dunno how to spell larr..so askk nigel for help..he taught once in class.once at canteen.then when i tryy..i still didnt get it rite..somemore i thot i correct lehh..hahaha..pathetic mii.haha.

hope i pass tmrr a-math test lorr..haha.

haiis..haf been thinkkin so long..guess everiithing ishh moii fault larr..hu call mii to be a scaryy-cat..dun dare to approach..ha! cant blame aniione.haiis.i noe.theres no hope larr..

so i've decided to be ur guardian angel forever..sitting at a corner..watchiin euu from afar..and onlii dream of being wif euu in moii dreams.haiis.

When euu'r happi..im happi too..

muackks.

haiis.todayy...dun thinkk im goinng out.haha..hafta go schh tmrr again..so siann lorr..haiis.

perhaps we shld learn how to cherish everione around us before they leave us one by one.by then..u will feel empty.so sad that u regretted not cherishing them.haiis.

before u decided to turn ur back and go away.
remember who euu leave behind..droplets of tears.

i realli wanna be wif euu____`

HAIIS...

whee-.

backk.haha.
todayy..morninn..930 wakke up...was askked to called tiing to wakke up.so gave her a mornin call.and YET..shes still late..cuz she went backk to slp after answerin moii fone.haha..pig.haha.thenn i haf to wait at the mrt station for lke 20mins.siann.haha.thenn somemore..lesbiann went to e mrt station..suppose to find me..thenn we wait for tiing to to come.then go town together..but apprentlii..he cant see mi?!?!!.haha.thenn he go first.haha..diiaos rite..then i and tiing met up wif him at orchard mrt station.haha.

went to the usual place lorr.taka! still got where.haha.thenn tiing go shop for clothinggs..haha.thenn went to eat ice-cream..shop shop..thenn was lke..lesbiann was eating a sweet.thenn got orange favour de.thenn we all dun lke maa..sho he throw..and as it was raining..when he throw in front..the sweet landed on someone umbrella top..haha..we was luffin and luffing..and i step tiing slipper.thenn i fall off..then tiing hopped backk to wear it..hahahaha..and lke..i was luffin til stomachache..haha..thenn we went to takke neos.haha.

thenn went to ps to watchh movie maa..sho shop awhile..then met up wif pyy.thenn we went to eat LJS..thenn went to watchh lorr..watched miss.congeniality 2..it was aiight..haha..berii funni..and was lke..damm cold inside..thenn i and tiing was lke..took lesbian de jacket.thenn eachh wear one side..haha.shivering.haha.

thenn went to meet moii parents for dinner.thenn went home.thenn here i am..bloggin.haha.

as usual.todayy..i and tiing ate alot lorr..all moneyy spent on food..and we welcome lesbian to join our ''eat-alot.neva-say-full'' de club..hahahaha..okk.im lamee..kks..
end here.

muackks.

boox.

nth larr.
haiis.

to tiing : all disneyy characters are innocent!!! wahahahah.

siian.wonders wads everionne doinng.haiiyo.

muackks*

whee-.

tmrr ishh good fridayy..means i can haff 3days of good rest..yesh!.haha.
todayy..tiing didnt come to schh..tze went off after assemblii.haha.she went thailand durin e wkends.haha.hope she dun bring backk a apple in her throat?! hahaha..im wicked.haha.

lols..thenn went for guides after schh.okk larr.normal guide meeting.haha.
thenn went home..onlinee..conf wiff tiing and lesbiann.haha.thenn put down le.thenn nth to do..so here i am..boo-. bloggin.haha.

siian.

life still so boringg.

haiis.

when will the fireworks appear in moii life?!?!

i doubt so ;

whee-.


haiis..todayy took backk our ppr..expected..haiis.berii lousyy lorr..muz buckk up le..haha..
lalalla..thenn todayy got plc for awhile..tmrr got guides..haiis..


haiis..


walkin aimlesslii in my life..

wad can i sayy abt tis meaninless life..

nth..apprentlii nth..haiis..

poof*realli hope cann vanishh into thin airr..

muackks*



sometimes,, all you need is one chance]-

whee-.

todayy..hmm..nth realli happen..normal schling againn...
my head keep on dropping downn during physics..haha.real sleepyy.haha..

lolx.


dunno..


nthh..


haiis.

i wanna cryy.

whee-.

lolx.todae..mondayy of the wk after the holis.haha.

`moodyy..

`crazii..

`siianss...

`lots of energy..although ytd onlii slpt for 2hrs..dunno y too.haha.
jiu shi..cannot slp lor..turn and turn from lke 11pm til 2plus..oso cant slp..haiis.

todayy finalli change place le..okk larr..both side ishh siti and tze.haha.lolx..hope not gonna change again le.haha. nth le larr..normal schooling lorr.haha.


[a shadow of lonliness sitting there..feeling lost and blue..]

muackks*

lollipop..realli brings backk lots of memories. 

haIIs..i shldnt use red font colour for ytd entry.haha..it seems that a big thing has happen to mii..actualli..nth larr..juz felt irritated and berii fan that time.thenn all i saw was red..hahahaha.
dun worry! but aniiwae..do someone care? ha!

haiis..aniiwae..holis are coming to an endd..siian..
lolx..and oh yaarr.when i sch reopen horr..i gonna be lil attitude liaoo.haha.dunno y oso..juz feel lke.haha..am i crazzi..haha..i juz wanna scold someone.anione?

haIIs..i haf lots to sayy in my heart..i wanna spill everithing outt..but when i come to blog..nth came out.lolx..apprentlli..when i wanted to type something..my whole mind blankk..i dunno how to express my feelings in words..haIIs..

muackks*

manny things has been goinn thru my mind todayy.

HAISS!!!
DUNNO WAD AM I THINKING!!
OMG!!!

WAD IF...

twisted fairytale..guess my fate ishh realli a twisted one.haiis. 

whee-.


backk.haha.wah!..todaes ishh tiring.haha.
kkz.morning went to LJS for breakfast..haha.
thenn went to schh.haha. then meet up wif ting and sze after their a-maths lesson..

thenn headed for sembawang.haha.ting hse.wwent to kfc b4 tt..and a accident happen..and im luffin awayy..when actualii im the cause of it.haha.
thenn went to buyy lots of food to ting hse ate. pt soon join us..
play ;
watchh singers mv ;
sing songs ;
eat ;
tokk ;
lookin at the sky ;

and soon its dinner time..her mum cook..yummy! thenn we went out and chat lorr..some gurl stuffs larr.haha. thenn i and pyy went home lorr..oh.sze went home earlii.heex.

haha.lke tt lorr..backk to reality le lorr.haha.lolz..nth to sayy.haha.emptyness ishh backk for more!! heex. ;P


because of you~~~~~
the sun will always shine into my life~~~~~

muacks*

whee-.

haha..todae stayyin at home..gonna finishh my hw..otherwise..i got no time to do le.haha..

lolz.okk.ytdd was cool.cuz lke..at nite rite..realise that j3y2,, all moii sistas are happy..for their ownn reasons larr..its lke..finalli theres one dayy j3y2 sistas all are happy.yeahh.haha..lalala~j3y2 rockks kks.

haha.then erm..thurs maybb goinn tiing there if nth crop up larr.haha.

im sho happyy todayy..for no reasons..haha.juz feeling happy.light.smiling..u noe wad i mean yea?.haha..when euu are in a gd mood.haha.lalala~

muackks*





whee..aint theyy sweet too.haha..

whee-.

todaee..ishh the first dayy of march 1wk holis.haha.and i still hafta go backk to sch..siann.haha

okk..todae..went backk to schh for prefects games dayy lorr.haha..met up wif bella at 7am..haf to wake up lke 6.30am..so siann..its lke..u guys all still slpin lorr.haha.thenn play play and play.haha.thenn austin came..start luffin...and keep on sayyin the indiann thingy.haha.not funnny! haha.fine..okk..its a lil funni.haha.

thenn after that..met up wif py..went to cine awhile..actualli wanted to c a frenz of mine workkin there..but cant findd..sho went to eat LJS..thenn walk walk a while..thenn saw timo.haha..ohh.thenn pyy was lke..haha..keep smiling..haha..and luffin..and dun wanna go home!!!.haha.

then after that..i went to j8 meet moii parents and my bro..went to swensens eat ice-creamm..okk..tis ishh the grab.swensen now rite..ish lke havin tis offer..ermm..all sundaes are sold at 3buckks from 3-5.30pm.haha..normal price its lke..6plus baa.haha..and i ate a fire hse..haha.3scoops..yummy!


contridicting myyself..totalli!! dunno how to describe..

muackks*


aint tis sweet.haha.

feeling utterlii useless now.


feeling pathetic.


thinkkin haf ever someone realli care abt mii.



thinkkin.if im dead..will ever someone notice..



do someone noe moii existance?

mi and pug jelly member..lead singer 

j3y2 and pug jelly de one of e member. 

whee-.

todae ishh suchh a bash!yeah.haha

kkz..
-met up wif sistas.
-went to youth park for whitley 40th anniversery. sweatyy+ hot weather
-saw mannni whitleyans performances whichh ishh sho cool
-PUG JELLY!!..rockk on..theyy rockks..luv themm. theyy got perform too.heez..sang 3 songs.
*sang well,songs are nice
*cute and handsome
*frenzlii
*took lots of pics wif them.
*theyy simplly rocks
-met up wif ivan,bl and xiao yong.thenn chat a lil while.then they went off le.and aniiwae..ivan nice tryy la..
-went to j8 and ate dinner
-full and happy.
-enjoyable dayy!

haha..pug jelly realli rockks lorr..theyy are moii idol!.heez.
realise that i didnt even thinkk of him todaee lorr..haha..wad it means.haha..i realli dunno lehh..argh..i realli dunno lehh..im confused..haiis.
im sort of lke..confirm moii answer recentlii rite.but i dunno y..todae..i suddenlli feel shakky.haha.dunno..haha.

aniiwae..py..dun thinkk sho muchh larr...
nth gonna seperate j3y2 larr.heex..kkz..

muackks*

whee-.

wahh..serious..time flew berii fast..its lke..now alr marchh..todae ishh last day b4 march holis.its lke..berii fast lorr..haha..and of course..e2 has finalli show their true colours..we can be crazii and funkky too kkz.haha..tt time sho quiet..now..berii noisyy le lor.but when studyinn..jiu berii quiet.haha..dunno y oso..haha..3e2 rockk on kkz.heex..luv everyy 3e2'peeps to bits.haha.

todaee.haha..emergency practice..haha.thenn after the sch..went to ps..haha.ate.thenn went around shoppin..finalli found moii wrapper for moii amath txtbk...yeahh.thenn we went to buy ice cream then sat down and chat..haha..onlii one word to describe..crazyy.haha..4 of us lke..crazzi gurll..goinn crazi.haha.chat..luff..squeeze..haha..everitihng.haha..ohh..ya..tinggg went to orchard wif her cousin..sho she didnt join us.heex. thenn after tt..we went home le lorr.haha.

hmm..kkz..march holis..1wk..sort of organise everithing le larr.haha
muz studyy.haha.

ahyoo..one wk wont be seeing him..haiis.haha.anniiwae..todae kickk him lorr..oh goshh..i can feel how hard i kick him lorr..oh goshh..xin tong.haha..sorri yea..paisehh lehh..didnt thot i will kick sho hard.haha..

muacks*

whee-.

heex..todaee..kindaa exciting..haha..although its normal schooling larr.haha.wad am i tokkin abt.heex..

kkz..firstlii..haf to takke our class foto..haha..hope it turned out nice?.haha.
thenn after that..chemistry lesson..miss cheong start to tokk abt health for one whole period.haha..and do one experiment..and..woof! 2periods ishh gone.haha.thats fast.haha.

thenn durin chinese lesson..haha..berii nice lorr..fun..haha..didnt meant the lesson..haha..something else..wahha.thankks tze!.haha..muacks gurll..juz keep on helpin mii kkz.and if i suceeded..oh goshh..u are moii precious baobei liaoo.haha.but i sure noe it wont happen de larr.hhaa.

aniiwae.lets continue.haha..haf lots of fun in class.then after schh..i and tze went to j8..ate kfc.
thenn went to shop around..shop aroundd..and went to take neos.hahahah..we realli sot liaoo lorr..but its nice to takke 2 person de..berii cool.haha.thenn we haf tis crazii idea.and oh goshh..we realli did it.wonders wads gonna happen tmrr after the crazii idea haf been carried out.haha.

thenn ting,sze,ivan and baolong came.thenn theyy went to watchh movie.thenn mi and tze went home..haha..

oh goshh..still cant believe we did that crazii idea..hahaha.
aniiwae..thanks tze1. luv euu sho much.haha.

im confirm abt it lerr..i realli do..im gonna wait for euu.even if i noe the ending aint a happy ending.

muackks*

whee-.

tues.haha.nth muchh larr..ting and pyy didnt come to sch..then normal schoolin lorr.heex.
thenn somehow..todae quite fun ba..haha.still prefer ytd..heex..lol.
oh yah..tis sat got rockk concert..muz go support moii beloved senior michelle,xp and the gang..jiayouu worrr.heex.

actualii..after readin michelle's monday entriey..didnt realise that sho mannii ppl ishh so sad inside..haha..im one of them oso ba..havin a wide smile outside..when actualii..im crying inside.ha!.haiis.

i initiated my own suffering.

afterall shes a real nice gurl?

i choose to lke you in silence..watch you from a distance and dream from afar..

haiis..this ishh the secret that i can neba haf a chance to tell euu...cuz im too afraid to lose everithing that i haf now wif euu.even though its juz a few days memories..it still precious to mii.

bcuz of eu..my lking to something has changed.


im pathetic!

muacks.

whee-.

todaee was fun!!.haha..

went out wif ting.tze and moi ivan kor..heex..
haha..lots of things to sae.haha..but scare u guys later bored to death le larr..sho dun wanna rite..thenn the kuku ivan..keepp on suannin mii and tze lorr..kuku..oh yahh..tze sickk..fever..but she still go wif us..wa..sho wei da lehh.haha..

then dinner time..py came..and we go eat together at NYDC..heex..thenn berii funni lorr..haha.oh yarr..we promise to rite in our blog.haha..ish that rite..the dinner cost us $111.46 kkx.haha..surprised?.heex.5 ppl eat..actualii we got monney pay de lorr..but the service charge and gst cost us 11bucks kkx..for nth..the service lke..sho pathetic lorr..not realli good service aniiwae.hahahah..thenn after that..pyy ting and ivann go meet his frennz at amk lorr..then the both of us(tze and mi) went home larr.haha..

its lke..the kuku ivan late lke shit lor..haha.but he got his reasons larr.haha..thenn overall,, berii enjoyable larr.heex.

todaee at topshop..i saw the lollipops..thenn i saw the green apple one..and ohh.i suddenlii rmb that dae..everithing rushh to moii mind..everithing..haiis..wadeva..im still confused..wad shld i do..argh!!!!!!

luvv moii sistas and moi kuku gbro..heex.

muackks.

whee-.

haiis..todae..nth muchh larr..as usual..haha..thenn after sch..got guides.hhaa..fun lorr..shout and shout.haha..no voice liaoo..thenn after guides..went to eat dinner wif diana and xueyun..heex..took neos..and i went home..haha.


haiis..peiyingg arhh..dun be sho sad larr..u thinkk u are the onlii one sad arhh..im more stressed up than euu lorr..i dun wanna sae nia..actualli..in moii heart..i got alot stuffs inside..but i dunn wanna sae nia..dun feel lke saein.haiis.annd u think i not sad...i everidae wanna cryy lorr..but i..haiis..nvmm..i've got so muchh thing to sae..but i juz dunno how to express to u guys..sho i did was keep everithing in moii heart lorr..haiis..im goinn thru mani stages of life now..haiis.

aniwae..u muz be brave yea..life juz lke that..u haf to go thru sho manii stuffs lorr..difficulties and everithing..tryy to rmb of all ur happy days..and u will realise that the happiness dayys will cover up all ur sad days..and im sure one dae..u will find someone that u can share all the happiness and sorrows wif yea..kkx..although i alwaes ''suan'' euu..but i realli care abt yea..heex.


.muackks.


-im confused..moii mind askk mi to give up..but moii heart juz dun allow.haiis.wad shld i do..
i've tried..but it didnt workk out-

whee-.

lost the post that i juz type..nvmm.haha..retype.haha.

todaee.nth muchh..the assemblii was cool todae..enjoy it..heex..thenn after schh..nth muchh too.heex..ate my lunchh and went home le lorr..nth muchh ma..haha..

recentlii weather alwaes on and off..so kuku..perhaps the weather ishh experiencing moodswing too..wahhahaha..

todae ishh sports heats..dunno now hao le?.hmm..later askk bella abt the results lorr..heex.

haiis..dunno wad am i doinn..dun understand myyself..haiis.
dun askk mi anithing..cuz im still in a daze and wondering wad had happenned and thinkkin wad shld i do nct..everithing happen sho fast...no time left for mi to react.sho all i did was continue to luff awayy..when actualli..im confused and sad inside..haiis.

muackks*

whee-.

todaee..haha..lalala~
after schh..went to mos burger and do our geo project..but in e end..i do moii hw larr..cuz i wanna go home and do the geo proj..heex..thenn after that..we went to eat our lunchh..thenn went to take neos..twice!!.haha...but it was real fun..heex.

thenn ivan kor call and askk we all go TP kfc found them..sho we went lorr..sat there..chat lots lorr..sho funni...thenn after that i went home le.haha.

then went home..online.check frenzster..
tis ish how moii feelin went todae kkx..

depressed-->less depressed,start to luff-->excited-->happy--> sad-->disappointed-->confused

tis ishh how it went lorr..haiis..roller coaster yeah..haiss..guess tis ish moii life ba..full of roller coaster feelings..haha..

muackks*

haiis.

i dunno wad im goinn thru.


im goinn crazii.


wads wrong wif me man.


shucks!

whee-.


blog time.heex.

todaee..nth muchh la..yeahh.sho happi i passed moii emaths test..yeahh!!..hurray.haha
after schh went to j8 and takke neos moii sisters.4/5 sistas.lolx.
haha..thenn went home le..todae nth muchh la..

Crush - Mandy Moore

You know everything that I'm afraid of
You do everything i wish i did
Everybody wants you, everybody loves you

I know i should tell you how i feel
I wish everyone would disappear
Everytime you call me, I'm too scared to be me
And I'm too shy to say

Ooh, I got a crush on you
I hope you feel the way that i do
I get a rushWhen I'm with you
Ooh, I've got a crush on you
A crush on you

You know, I'm the one that you can talk to
And sometimes you tell me thing that i don't want to know
I just want to hold you
And you say exactly how you feel about her
And I wonder, could you ever think of me that way

Ooh, I got a crush on you
I hope you feel the way that i do
I get a rushWhen I'm with you
Ooh, I've got a crush on you
A crush on you

Ooh, I wish i could tell somebody
But there's no one to talk to, nobody knows
I've got a crush on you
A crush on you, I got a crush

You say everything that no one says
But i feel everything that you're afraid to feel
I will always want you, I will always love you
I've got a crush...

muackks/___*